The Bubbly blogger

Just had to share this song because I love spoken word mixed with singing.  Claiming perseverance and endurance during this trying and difficult season.  Who's with me???

Wow it has been a week since I have posted anything, so sorry about that. I started my two nanny jobs this week and it has been a whirlwind of busyness. Just so you can keep track of my schedule, I nanny a 5 year old and seven year old in Corcoran on Mondays and Wednesdays, and then on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays I nanny Olivia who is six. On Wednesdays, I  help out with Next Gen and usually Tuesdays and Thursdays I am tutoring a second grader in reading. As you can tell I have a busy schedule. So tonight I am sitting out on our porch and updating you guys and talking to my roommate  Kassandra.  I took Olivia to Elm Creek Park today and she just reminds me how dependent children are on their caretaker.  Lately I have been living an independent life and not relying on God lately. I  search for a job myself, I look for ways to make money. This is me being in control when Jesus wants me to let go and rely on Him.  Just seeing how she w...

My word for the year is HOPE. I prayed about a word at the beginning of 2016 and asked God to bring me a word that would describe what he is going to do this year and the word HOPE kept popping up every where. I believe that he is going to renew my hope in Him after what happened last year, create a new hope for my own classroom, hope for new relationships. I have already seen Him build upon my hope for friendships as he brought me to a wonderful church with wonderful people in my age group.  He is slowly renewing my hope in him and not in ways  I would expect. I honestly thought he would renew my hope in Him through rest and extra time alone with him. I never thought trials would be one of the ways he would renew my hope in Him. But he is using a specific trial to not only renew my hope but also to help me identify where my hope is found. My mentor shared this verse with me yesterday from James 1:2-4 "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds...

I think its so interesting how after you graduate college you are on your own. I mean when I started college I felt like a baby. My eyes were just starting to open like a new baby bird and I was slowly starting to see the world but I still didn't know my identity. I worried about every little thing especially about what other people thought of me. I  took forever to make a decision because I wanted to make the best decision for other people. My time would  also revolve around other people's schedule. Even my faith was based on other people 's beliefs. The word I would use to describe my college years would be DEPENDENT. Now that I am 24 years old and working, I feel the shift in being  INDEPENDENT.  I have so many decisions to make but I also have many of my own beliefs and opinions. I started noticing these things this weekend when my roomie (Alexi) asked me to go to a movie late Friday night. We saw the movie Me before you. I realized that I can say yes and ...

Sometimes you work a ten hour work day. Sometimes you tell the kids you are nanny that they will get a prize for cleaning up the mess you made with pasta noodles... and the prize is a high five :) Sometimes you burn your dinner and set the smoke alarm off in your new apartment. Sometimes you have to go to taco bell at 8 pm to get dinner to replace the burnt dinner. Sometimes the family gets home 40 minutes late. Sometimes you have to rush from one job to the next to fit other people's schedule. Sometimes you sit out on the deck with a glass of wine and watch the trees sway in the breeze and children play at the park. Sometimes you blog about the crazy day you had. Sometimes you see that there is grace in each moment. Sometimes its takes a crazy day to appreciate the peaceful good days. Sometimes you just marvel at the fact that God is still present with you through it all and you don't have to carry the burden anymore.

"They remind me of your faithfulness and all you brought me through. They teach me that my brokenness is something you can use. They show me where I've been and that I am not there anymore, that's what scars are for." scars by Mandisa I have been thinking about the purpose of hard things that I have gone through in the past and how they have left a scar on my heart. I have also been noticing how some of those scars are affecting my relationships with different people in my life.  To be honest high school and my freshman year of college were the hardest year of my left. Granted I am only 24 but if you think about it 5 years is a long time to go through difficult times. The main thing that kept happening to me was being ditched by people in my life. It started my freshman year in high school in which I would make friends with two girls and then in the middle of the year they found other girls to hang out with and joined their clique.  This cycle of making fri...