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Chicago family vacay

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Hey All- I got back two weeks ago from Chicago. We went on a vacation for four days and it was wonderful. Enjoy the pics

Thursday thoughts

This post  is going to be filled with a bunch of random thoughts that I feel the Spirit has brought to my mind in the past couple of weeks. God is good all the time and all the time he is good. Hmm... seems simple but hard to remember, God is good even when I don't get that job, marry someone, get the right house, get accepted into that grad school, go on that trip etc. Following that train of thought, if I get my dream job, house, life etc then I am only following God based on conditions that I put on Him. I need to remember that He is worthy to be followed no matter what happens in life. Our identity is not in our dream job, dream life. I must find my identity in Christ and him alone > the lesson I am currently learning God is love and he is all I need from this day forward and all eternity. .> just heard this in a song by Owl City and Britt Nicole called You are not alone. This phrase stuck with me. Because I like to end with quotes, one of favorite bands G...

Challenging but grateful

"One of the most challenging characteristic's  of God is his patience." Pastor Peter Kaspner of Open Door This is something my pastor talked about this morning. He started by explaining how we notice God's timing the most when there is injustice in the world.  We will wonder when is God going to intervene? Then throughout the sermon he talked about the reason for his patience is so that not one of us will perish as said in 2nd Peter 3:9 " The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise,  as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient  with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." As I am sitting here thinking about the sermon I see the way God has been patient in my own life. I would be lying if I said that his patience didn't frustrate at times especially in this season of waiting for a classroom that I can call my own. But then I realize how if God wasn't patient with me I would have a really shallow relationsh...

More than enough

 Confession time: I struggle with comparison. It is definitely an insecurity of mine. Wow you probably didn't think I would start out with a confession and get vulnerable right away. Well I did and now that we have got that out of the way I feel a little bit lighter. This summer has been all about uncovering what has taken root in my heart and letting the Holy Spirit bring it to the surface so I can be forgiven and experience the freedom I have been longing for. "I wish I could be outgoing as her." "If only I had as many friends as her" " I wish I could be her because she has a teaching job at a school that she loves." " Why can't I be funny like her?" These are only a small glimpse into thoughts that have been rolling around in my mind. A couple of weeks ago I was thinking about how ungrateful I am being. By comparing myself to others I have allowed myself to be a complainer and not thankful for the personality God has given m...

Rest now

" Rest now child, you can rest now, put your head upon my chest now my heart beats for you . Rest now never second guess now, my love for you will never change no matter what you do." JJ weeks If you know me, you know that I have a hard time sitting still. I have to be doing something at all times and this has carried over to my sleeping at the new apartment. My thoughts wander all over the place. Since I am a busy bee, I tend to me a worrier. AT Night It is the WORST. I would try to pray but would get distracted. I overcomplicated my prayers and made them so wordy I would get distracted. Then one night I felt like the Spirit was saying " rest now and give it up." IT being  everything I was stewing over. Then flash forward a week, I worked at a merchandise table for two bands that played at my church... Jason Gray and JJ Weeks.  JJ Weeks talked about this song came out of time when everyone demanded something from him except  God and his children. God gave hi...

faithful

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This verse has stuck out to me the past couple of weeks and the word faithful is what I felt like the Holy Spirit was prompting me to notice. So I looked it up, faithful means: "true, devoted, constant, implies long continued and steadfast fidelity to whatever one is bound." I just love this quality about God. He is the constant in my life no matter what my circumstances are or who else is in my life , He will be there for me I am so glad my hope is in this God.

Friendship

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Friendship is hard. Sometimes you think you are really close with someone but really you are not as close you thought. It can be hard because you have to  be intentional in getting together and staying up to date on each other's lives. It can also be hard because you might have to ask all the questions. It can also be hard because you might move in opposite directions and not be in each other's lives for your whole life. Friendship is also hard because you have to vulnerable and honest. This also makes friendship... Friendship is also rewarding. Its rewarding when you share open, honest struggles and they validate or encourage or listen to what you are going through. Its also rewarding when you know they are praying for you. Its rewarding when you are with the friend as they go through something hard and come out better and stronger. Its rewarding when you attend your friend's wedding, parties and celebrations. Friendship is also fun. When you are friends ...